what do you have but regret
You don't have to be perfect or good
Just do something
Something that makes your heart sing.
I wrote the words above last night in my journal. Lately, I am surprised by the elements of "stuckness" that seems to appear in my personal writing.I confess that I really had not taken the chance to check in with myself. So that could explain much.
Instead, I've been putting out small surface fires and not getting to the heart of the matter. The truth is that I've been going at an exhaustive rate these past six months and while many good things have happened, I have not had the time I need to nurture my soul.
However, I am not really in a position to do a major life overhaul. I have to find some good in the now in the situations and things that are causing me annoyance. Two things that I have learned over these years of practicing yoga and developing an authentic spiritual practice of my own is that everything changes and that your life needs your attention.
While this does not solve the things that I feel or problematic it does give me a little space to breath around things. I can take heart that these situations will change in some way. Whether, it will be my perspective or actual physical change, I can't say.
I can also take heart that by paying attention to what is the birds chirping, the dishes in the sink,the bathroom trash, watering my plants, packing my lunch, my embroidery project and talking with those I love that I become attentive to my own life.
Back to my journal entry{from above}. I wrote that after I realized that I was using the wrong fabric for my embroidery. The threads are getting all tangled and ugly on the underside. And if I am honest the picture side is not perfect. However, I realize that sometimes that's the way it is. I am not a great embroiderer{nor do I have hopes of becoming one}. I take making things serious but not too serious. My whole goal is to make and enjoy. In this way, I suppose nothing changes but everything.
P.S.
I found this article very inspiring- it's about artist care.
This is such an inspiring series.
Have a sweet week!
Another fantastic post, Keishua. If we don't try, we're left with regret. Truer words have never been spoken. And as difficult as it is sometimes to admit we're just not perfect, we need to make the most of our time and use it wisely... I'm glad you're learning this and I hope you are finding the time to nourish and feed your body and soul. XOXO
ReplyDeleteI love what you wrote in your journal. Lately, I've been feeling that so many artistic endeavors make my heart sing, and when I attempt all of them I don't give any one thing 100 percent. And if I don't give something 100 percent, how will I be a "success"? It's such a wacky spiral of a feeling. So, what did I do? I decided I needed to work on me. I ordered some books on healing my soul...and then maybe I'll be ready to commit. Or maybe not, but at least I will be happy. All of that is to say that I think I am choosing to become attentive to my own life, as well. I love what you wrote here. It really resonates.
ReplyDeleteI like your poem about trying a lot. It's so very true!
ReplyDeleteThe nice part about embroidery, or crafts in general, is that with practice you get better. It's sort of the same with the rest of life, too. And me and embroidery are on similar terms, haha.
ReplyDeleteIt is disheartening to spend so much time something and then realise that it doesn't look how you wanted it too, but in my opinion mistakes in embroidery or knitting or crocheting just make the piece more unique more you, and show your growth as you learn to do it better!
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What a beautiful analogy for life your embroidery makes. Parts of this post I could have written. I feel stuck and out of sorts right now. My time gets wasted on useless things and I feel like I accomplish so little each week. I've been frustrated, and as a result, I'm being hard on myself. I haven't been exercising or meditating or working on projects I want to work on. I'm trying to give myself time right now to discover some schedule that will work for me, but one of the things I find I miss most is having someone to sit down with and help me work things out.
ReplyDeleteI love what you wrote in you diary- it's so amazing that you can find such deep thoughts in the most simple, every day things.
ReplyDeleteIncredible words, Keishua. Just incredible. I have the same moments as you and like you I am not ready to make a big change and more than just not ready - I cannot. I grow slowly. Thank you for sharing your beautiful words.
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