Have you ever tried to find you way. I mean really dug deep in your soul in a pool of quiet fumbling toward the center. I have a few times and usually it's mushy and unclear.
About 4 years ago. I was considering a year in Denver but I was offered a mediocre job that I took instead. Don't get me wrong it did not seem so bad at the time. And looking back it was very helpful and led me to many good things.
Four years ago, I heard a voice in my heart that said-go but I stayed. I don't think it was a particular location that I needed to go towards. No, my heart was yearning for service, hope and it's path. I'm not sure that Denver would have made things any clearer. All I heard was go but I did not believe what was offered was better than what was. I'll never know and that's okay.
The point is I made a choice with all it's consequences and rewards and am very happy with it. In some way, I feel like I am on the edge of another "Denver". I'm dragging my feet, hoping to be granted a stay and knowing I must be unafraid.
What are you wrestling with today?
About 4 years ago. I was considering a year in Denver but I was offered a mediocre job that I took instead. Don't get me wrong it did not seem so bad at the time. And looking back it was very helpful and led me to many good things.
Four years ago, I heard a voice in my heart that said-go but I stayed. I don't think it was a particular location that I needed to go towards. No, my heart was yearning for service, hope and it's path. I'm not sure that Denver would have made things any clearer. All I heard was go but I did not believe what was offered was better than what was. I'll never know and that's okay.
The point is I made a choice with all it's consequences and rewards and am very happy with it. In some way, I feel like I am on the edge of another "Denver". I'm dragging my feet, hoping to be granted a stay and knowing I must be unafraid.
What are you wrestling with today?
I hope you find the answers you're looking for about whatever you're facing. Even if you can't see the answers clearly right now!
ReplyDeleteI have heard this nagging voice before, too, but haven't always listened. I think there's a reason we make the decisions we make in life, even though the answers don't always appear to make sense.
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Good to see you blogging again, my friend. You have been missed.
I'm actually wrestling with very similar feelings right now. Something inside of me is pushing me to travel...which is tricky with a full-time job. But I don't feel like here is the right place for me. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, because I am, but this job doesn't light up my soul the way I know the right thing will. I just have to figure out how to get there.
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