I just realized that I have been M.I.A. I mean, I knew I was but had no idea how much. You see I have been wanting some very particular things to happen considering a work situation and it has not. Not from my lack of trying.
In the meantime, I have been living on pins and needles and being a Negative Nelly{as they say}. As you know that is really no way to live. I dislike holding my breath, waiting for perfection and being all tense and edgy. Not a good look for me.
I'm still working to toward my goals but I am also trying to have gratitude for what the many good things that are already in place in my life. I think on some level I always think that if I am not worried and badgering myself nothing will happen. That really isn't true.
My friend diana, gave me a word recently: Power
I need to take my power back from the black hole I tossed
it in. Otherwise, I am bound to end up there with it.
Reclaiming it seems hard and it is because what exactly is power and how does one exhibit its characteristics in her life?
Like any good pilgrim I am open but hesitate. Ready but unwilling. All I know is that right now, I am set to pay attention to life, to make space around my disappointments and seek new opportunities. *Gulp* that feels like a mouthful.
And it is.
What are your thoughts on powerful living?
What are you reclaiming lately?
what a great post. i can certainly relate to what you're writing here. isn't it funny how something like blogging can feel like that tipping point to taking action? i know my blog motivates me to DO more things.
ReplyDeletesending you powerfully good thoughts. :)
Sometimes that's all it takes. Realizing you have the power to make things happen. With patience and effort, you'll be there sooner than you think!
ReplyDeleteLately I've been reclaiming me. I took time to unplug and sit with things that are important to me. Finally having the ability to do that has been very empowering to me. Sending you good thoughts. ~THW~
ReplyDeleteTis indeed a mouthful and an ambitious goal, but if there's anyone I know who can go for it, it's you. Sending warm thoughts your way, Keishua.
ReplyDeleteJust this morning I wrote a post about being present in the present. That's something I'd like very much to achieve.