“When we stop opposing reality, action becomes simple, fluid, kind, and fearless.”
~Bryon Katie
Changes, even if done with mindfulness and love, can be hard. We recently moved and while most of the move has went fairly well. There is a sense of loss and frustration. Frustration because you don't know any of the streets and where they lead or that the local store carries different brands.
Frustration because you miss the place that nurtured you for 10 years and you wonder how you will get grounded in this new place. I have to say so-far this has been a kind place. Our neighbors are friendly and most people seem helpful. That is what we left. I guess the gap in my heart comes from not really "escaping anything".
Ten years ago, when I left home to go to college across the country, I was escaping childhood and economic restraints. While, my new location offers me some ease it also does not really serve as an escape from anything serious.
I wonder at my need to have a huge story attached to everything. Why can't I let this story unfold. Why can't I keep my heart open and soft? I don't know the answer to my question. All I know is that I am here, breathing and moving and that will have to do.
P.S. Have a sweet weekend.
Good luck with getting the feeling of your new place. I always found it hard to have to google where the closest grocery store was when I moved to a new place. It'll all come together and then you'll start to ache for a little bit of the change and newness (or at least I find out that is how I like to work. Haha!). Sending you lots of good thoughts on your lovely new place!!!
ReplyDeleteI think that is both the profound excitement of a new place and the most extreme version of discomfort (not feeling "home" yet). It comes, in time, all of it - making friends with places and people. I find my best recourse is always to try capture the excitement of discovery and forgive myself the humanity of my inclination to be afraid. I spend time with the fear while I try to outpace it at the same time. I'm not sure that is the best way, but it is my way - that age old adage of "act confident and you will be". I would say your Henry Miller quote...right over there----> says everything. :)
ReplyDeleteEnjoy breathing this new space and becoming. Congratulations on your courage to move.
You'll learn to love this new place and embrace the challenges of being somewhere unfamiliar. It takes a little time, yes, but it's worth it, I think.
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