One of the big lessons from these past few weeks is patience.
I am not naturally patient. I prefer everything done right now. So imagine my surprise when life is just piddling alone.
I find myself getting agitated- I need things to happen, I have obligations, blah blah! What all this really boils down to is fear.
Fear of embracing the moment imperfect incomplete and lacking. Horrid words and powerful motivators. However, what had frantic rushing ever got me? Not much.
I don't write to bash myself but rather celebrate once again inching out of the cycle.
This being alive is a moment by moment thing. I keep reminding myself-
-it's okay not to know
-it's okay not to be cool
-it's okay to believe in something
-it's okay to fall apart
-it's okay to be just me
-it's okay to let this be enough
What you saying it's okay to lately?
I am not naturally patient. I prefer everything done right now. So imagine my surprise when life is just piddling alone.
I find myself getting agitated- I need things to happen, I have obligations, blah blah! What all this really boils down to is fear.
Fear of embracing the moment imperfect incomplete and lacking. Horrid words and powerful motivators. However, what had frantic rushing ever got me? Not much.
I don't write to bash myself but rather celebrate once again inching out of the cycle.
This being alive is a moment by moment thing. I keep reminding myself-
-it's okay not to know
-it's okay not to be cool
-it's okay to believe in something
-it's okay to fall apart
-it's okay to be just me
-it's okay to let this be enough
What you saying it's okay to lately?
Yes to all of these... And this one in particular is written for me: it's okay to fall apart.it's okay to fall apart.
ReplyDeleteWoops, not sure why that posted like that. But you know what I mean :p
ReplyDeleteit is, indeed.
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