sometimes, it happens. that thing that knocks me off my feet
it could be anything but it is always the one thing i did not count on happening.
so there i am grappling towards what to do in a situation that feels overwhelming and lose/lose
i find that in times like this, i want to go the easy route.
the pain-free way{or what seems pain free}
there's nothing wrong with that.
suffering is optional, they say
when i break the notion of suffering open
i see many things
suffering is not only about irratation and physical pain
sometimes, it is purely emotional
living with the scars of easy can be just as devastating as walking in uncertainty
still, i don't think any of us called to suffer in anyway
{we are always suppose to be the hands and feet of good to each other}
pulling my notion further apart
i see that walking in uncertainty is only full of suffering
because of my projections on it
nothing has happened until i get there
still, the pragmatic in me always wants to be "practical"
to understand the consequences and rewards of every action and inaction
and this way of living has served me well
i love being pragmatic
let's be real,
there comes a time
we have to go into the unknown
and it does not matter that we go
{because we always have to go}
my prayer/mantra in times like this:
let me be a person of integrity no matter what
let me breathe through the fear that grips my heart
let compassion for my self and others root
let kind wisdom guide my decisions
let me move in and out of this gracefully
and with love
i firmly believe we have to act
{even inaction is an action}
we have move
that is not a choice
the only choice is our actual actions
and the intentions behind them
i remind myself -
let those speak not of fear
but of life
how do you cope with uncertainty?
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when things fall apart
have you seen marie?
novenas:prayers
strength to love
on being blog and this post, especially.
uncertainty is one of the most difficult places for any of us to be in, for me, i dislike it immensely. i like being sure, having a direction, even if it's a choice of 'wherever', i still get to feel that i chose that. but left to uncertainty happening TO us, is a whole different thing.
ReplyDeletewith time, i have come to recognise this special place. a place where magic is taking place. shifting and transformation is happening, even when it feels it's static. it isn't, the skies are turning, all is growing and gestating.
it just leaves us to breathe through it.
@google-51656dd8c79ae84a29c90fdd28793d5b:disqus your comment almost made cry! so beautiful and true.
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